Sunday, 18 March 2012

alone tonight

in desperate need of hugs.

in honesty... until one has experienced it.. or have gone through it personally.. no one will ever fully know what it's like.. they understand.. but they don't really know how it feels.

long distance relationship.. definitely one of the hardest things i've ever had to do.

like any other couple.. we have our mental/emotional breakdowns.. (more often than not it's usually always me). and it's almost impossible to make up.. because we get lost in the anger from the miscommunication.. and sometimes all it takes is a hug.. a small simple gesture to ease their pains. but.. we can't.. because we're so far away from each other. there'd be long periods of silence where neither of us know what to say.. but don't want to fight anymore. and i just want to tell him i love him.. but i'm just too angry to give in.

i knew it wasn't going to be easy.. but i didn't think it would be this hard either. just.. so many insecurities and uneasy feelings. but mostly... missing him and not being about to touch him.